YOE-ism

It’s really soon that march is about to be kicked out from the calendar, and fabulous april is almost marching in. Many things that i left behind few months back are about to be resurrected this coming april, plus my age number is so excited to add another number to itself, and i’m not sure what to feel, am i too excited that i’ll be a year older? or maybe i wanna throw some kind of party and let few good and best chums that i have all this while to come around?

both might be the reasons, plus, i wanna try few new things in life, some other different dimension which i choose to retain it as a secret for a moment. maybe, some fine day, when things really work out for me, i will make it public.

for the whole march, i’ve been struggling with more than 10 hours a day in my office, settling my products with overlapping deadlines with one another, and i almost lost my zest in life! but this coming week, i’m anticipating a row of better days, no more being chased by my editor in chiefs, system supports, or even indexers who were all around me everytime i’m trying to meet my deadlines. i was panda-eyed for few weeks, for staring extremely more than it should at this beloved, lovely pc of mine. luckily a tester eye-cream was given to me FOC when i bought my mosturizer few weeks back, but as usual, i didnt even notice any difference or maybe i didnt even care to take care of these eyes! but yes, both of them were in bad condition - puffed up and few lines were formed. indeed, i was weary enuff. extremely drained!

Tomorrow will be my last day of the month or maybe few beginning weeks of next month that i’ll be handling big update of a product. I’m really hoping luck is with me, that i don’t need to reschedule the deadline and let me get over with it this time.

For a long time, my friends been missing me, i hope they really do! maybe april will be the great time for me unleash my long for them. Just like old times, do stuff we like together, and let everyone around keeps staring on us for being too loud to be true for a group of muslim-scarfed gurls. we’re not that loud all the time, not without me for sure.

and many wedding receptions occur toos…how come i never like to be there? but for friends’ sake, i would, despite the burning bright sun on my head which melts out my powder on my face, you’ll receive my attendance. (*around KL and selangor only)…:-D! call me whatever, but my mom just couldn’t take a nap everytime she knows i’m away too far from home..so how? ngange jeklaa….

a new baby of aeva’s has arrived in this beautiful world, a very peaceful welcome greeting from me dear….i will surely come to visit you…stay calm both of you! anyway, congrats! a second one, the first gurl. isn’t that wonderful? yes, it is!

to tread this life, it ain’t easy, too many things to do in life, with restricted affordability - either mentally, physically or financially, we still need to pass it through. if we can’t, then we must! o how i’m so tired of thinking all this? what else could i do for a happier me? something with not much quantity but quality satisfaction is guaranteed.

I wish i can write more than what i can do now…

but at least, i would know that i’ve been highly occupied, too bz with my office work that i can’t even ogle at my blog for few minutes.

i wish there’s a place for me to ease up everything…just to be away from what i’m doing right now cuz i’m extremely brushed off with the pressure of deadlines and system breakdown.

my best gurls are away from me; malin, fajar,dew, aun, turk, spec, owl, phia, erra — guys, really missing u ere! luckily jan and deena are still ere with me in this barren island. and my guy is definitely out my sight now which adds more empty space to my life!

but for the things i’ve just bought - my new lipliner, my new eyeliner, my new clothes, my new shoes, my new mosturizer, my new gloss - there’s one sentence for YOU - You brighten up my days! ain’t that funny how inanimated things can actually make u happy?

It’s like i’ve been meeting him over and over again every week. and tomorrow, is another day for us.

He’ll be off to his hometown for a month next week, and now i solemnly couldn’t imagine how it would be without him on my weekends. I just don’t want to think about it but rather welcoming what may.

i talked to my mom this morning which was such a daily routine for me, and i told her that i’ll be out with him again tomorrow and she went, ”aren’t you tired of meeting the same person again n again?” i just smiled at the back of my phone, and i heard my heart whispered, ”you just can’t wait to see him, y bother?”

and last night, i told him on phone, while i was lying in my bed, before i headed for my peaceful slumber, i whispered to him that i’ll try my best not to waste him, and he went off silent……just few sobs at the end of the line were heard.

i could no longer hold my tears when he uttered ”i love you” in his shaking voice, could be the fear of blowing off the whole teary act in my eardrums was hitting him.

but there i was, watering my both eyes and flushed even more when he said softly to me, ”i will take care of you, only you”……