YOE-ism

There was another new chapter in my office yesterday, a team restructuring which had forced all of us to move to a new seating system. The long awaited announcement of who will be in which team was haunting me for few weeks since almost all of us here didn’t prefer to move neither to be in another new team with new different faces of people.

But here I am, in a new built team, and of course a new workstation. I’m glad the announcement was done and the more pleasurable thing is, the team restructuring isn’t that bad for me after all. I’m still attached to my previous Team Leader with few existing teammates which cast my joy shriek to the roof when it the decision was announced. But the “unhappy” part was, I had to let go my previous workstation that I was so in love with, and yesterday, the worse thing happened when all of had to move our stuff while the whole building was out of power supply. It was dark, hot, sweating! Yucks! We had to take along our PC, our brick binders, and all the edited pages that we did a year back! Pathetic!

So, nothing else more to say since today is my 1^st day being in this new restructured team. However, I’m still hoping that my good old days will always be with me wherever I am. 

Recently, my office team has been planning to engage ourselves into an outdoor activity and at first; all of us were in daze, of what to do, where and when. While all of us are slotted in with our tight deadlines, we thought that an activity would be such a waste and could threaten our work performances at the same time.

But we never really had a good time together, and to succumb to our endless time constraint is absolutely ridiculous because there is no such a good full stop to cease all those due dates. So, if it’s not now, when else?

So, mass emails were sent from time to time, asking for opinions and suggestions. At first, we agreed on pool although initially, I was sort of opposing it because as I told them clearly, I never went more than 10 yards to a pool table and what more to play it. But to second the majority, I think a new thing in life might be worth it.

Days passed by, suddenly one of us came up with a karaoke activity, which suddenly sent vibes to my body; now that is more like it! Singing time! I didn’t say much on it, but just to yell a big “YES”! And surprisingly, all of us seemed to be very delighted on this matter, and we didn’t take much time talking over it.

As planned, tomorrow (after work of course) will be an entertaining night for all of us. One of teammate even listed out a gist of songs he would like to sing. Some of them were Malay 70’s and I’m not sure if those songs are still available. But anyway, I’m impressed with his enthusiasm.

And as for me, I’m still groping for beautiful, suitable songs to sing. I think I won’t have problem to stand and sing; my nervousness in singing is always under control. But I might take up some time if I don’t figure out what songs I’m in and it would cause all us to go back a bit later than planned.

Maybe I should start thinking by now…but anyway, right now, I already have two songs in mind. MyKTV, please let me have those songs!

First of all, I would like to thank God, Allah SWT for keeping me breathing up till today together with good health, physically and mentally. For all His mercy keeping me alive with good family and friends, all of those blessings are priceless and words never enough to describe the bounty He has given me.

Last Sunday was a beautiful day for me and I was engulfed with gratefulness to be blessed with beautiful hearts around me who have always tried their best to be with me celebrating my 25^th birthday. I didn’t invite too many friends because I know that it would drive me crazy to attend to everyone at the same time. But actually, it comes just right to one reason; I prefer the good quality of friends rather than the enormous number in quantity. And those who are invited are the people who I think would become very useful resources to wipe my tears off if I ever need them.

Anyway, to Malin, Dew, Jan, Fajar, Eye-Na, D, Carol and Phia, thanks a lot for coming. I really hope you enjoyed the food although I know it’s sort of weary to get to my house. To Aun, Erra, turk, Kak su, Spec, Az and Bini, I was hoping all of you could make it that day but yea, I know, it was confirmed last minute and I wouldn’t blame you for not being able to come.

To my aunts, Sue and Angah, thanks for the wonderful gifts. I’m so sorry for being too frantic with my bunch of gals and didn’t manage to talk much with you cuz I didn’t see them for a long time and it added some kind of vibes to me to stay within their circles that day.

My parents and family, thanks so much for your support to live up the celebration that day. Ibu, I know you hurt your feet and back very much just to bring that day to life and I’m sorry for not being able to live it up on my own, cuz seriously, I can’t even cook a thing! My sis, Karmila, thanks for your help, and I’m sorry that you broke your nails just to lift up those heavy Pyrex bowls that day. Bapak, thanks to you too, for your monetary support on my lovely, precious day.

Last and not least, to my beloved man; baby, thanks for being there for me. Thanks for picking up my friends from the train station twice that day; back and forth. And thanks for being so tolerant with my antics lately, I know it was awful but there you are, didn’t even blame at all. And I’m sorry for saying things without thinking twice all this while. Thanks for cleaning up the chickens with me, stained your hands, shirt and pants, I really appreciate it. Thanks for helping my dad with the heavy settees and entertained some of my unattended friends. Thanks for massaging my toes that night, you know how hard I was back in the kitchen to make up the food, but dear, you didn’t do much actually, and I think it was more like a caress rather than soothing my aches.

And to all those people who warmed up my house with their beautiful voices on Suratul Yassin, may Allah bless you all the way.

Every year, besides being so frantic with my own birthday in April, another type of anxiety seems to rush in at the same time when it’s like almost all of my good friends are celebrating their birthdays in April and May; fajar, malin, dew, eye-na and turk to name a few. And not to mention of all my family members are celebrating their birthdays in these two months as well. I’ve been counting, budgeting on what to buy, and how much to spend on them. My parents, my sis and my bros, gosh, that’s really cutting up my saving!!

I think the trend of handling a birthday present is very crucial to revitalize a relationship. As for me, I think that is such a way to appreciate the beautiful moments we have together with that particular someone.  Some people may think that a birthday present doesn’t have to be pricey but rather our remembrance towards his/her special day is much more important. But I don’t look at it that way, because for me, I’m not a kind of person who simply buys presents for everyone and only those who I think are eligible enough to share my friendship value will get one. And for that reason, I really think that I need to get them a nice and well-created gift rather than hitting the Hinode shop to get a rm5 present as a birthday gift. But the situation would be a bit different if I’m being invited to a birthday party, and by adhering myself to a proper manner, by right, I should attend it with present in hand.

I take friends as very priceless creatures who you can’t simply learn their true colours within a day. But as time passes by, we now could rate how good they are presenting their faiths towards the friendships we’ve have created. As for me, I believe that a good friend is hard to find and once you’ve found them, never ever let them slip away. As for the kindness they’ve given me, I don’t think a good gift once a year is such a hassle.

I have several friends around, who I always make a pack of what to buy as a birthday gift whenever our birthdays are reaching near. I think it’s the best thing to do since both of us will gain pure satisfaction with what we buy and receive. But of course, budget will always come on stage as the most important thing when we start to buy a birthday present. And from the budget, we can start to figure out of what we want for our birthdays. And for this year, I’m expecting a purse and a watch from two good friends. Some people might say that I actually embarrass myself by requesting too much but I think my friends and I have a genuine win-win situation in present requesting, so, I think it’s just so fair and square.

I think to ask people of what they want for their birthdays is a very wise thing to do because they tend to appreciate even more and draws a big smile on their faces as well. They will simply love it and for me, I am more happy to know that.

I have always admired photo shoots taken around the world. In short, i just love the way the images are displayed and if its human beings, i just love to share the feelings that they have on their faces while being shot on picture.

I’ve just read malin’s blog, thanks to her for being so concern about her self value that she thought she might have lost it since she never cared to treasure the pictures she had before this and threw all the pics which she thought, "ouch, i don’t look good in here.” well, pictures that we had are not always need to be pretty and nice all the time, but the moments we had that time around are much much more important. i never threw my pics away. First, i sometimes suffered from short term memory loss and without pics, i can’t actually recall the places that i’v been, with who i’ve spent my time and on what purpose did i get to that place. Second, and the most obvious, u can’t never get back to the time that you had while ur on any pic! and even if u can get back to those particular places, your age and date are no longer the same! and that’s when you should realize that pics are very important. Remember that, Malin!

As being stated by Malin, being a narcisst has always seemed to be so synonym with me and recently, i’ve done some spring cleaning at my house - just to get rid of the unnecessary stuffs and re-organize everything with a better arrangement etc. and while doing that, i’ve found 2 big boxes with full of old albums while i was still at my tender age and my bros and sis were much much younger than me. and while flipping those old and frangible albums, from one page to another, i realized that i’ve been in love with the camera even longer that i thought i would be! the poses were lovely, even when i was forced to sit still during my age of 6th month! Indeed, i was good at picture taking although i think that special talent is kind of reducing by now. but the feeling of camera-loving never seems to fade! it seems to run in my family, i think my mom and sister share the same value with me.

but one thing i know for sure, as years go by, only by pictures, i know that i actually keep on putting more weight and i’m not sure when it will ever end to stop. and i hate weighing scale so much that i haven’t stepped on it for few years!

i’ve been liking book-reading since i was small, and it has become an exciting, addictive interest as i grow up. but lately i realized that there are too many to-do things in my list and i start to give up on reading.

sometimes i noticed that i enjoy movie-watching in cinemas rather than stay back home and read cuz i know that i can’t never read when i’m at home. My mom will uncessantly call me to accompany her in the living room with her tv or otherwise, i have to complete the never ending house chores, not because my mom asked me to but i just can’t stand the mess!

and as the eldest, and the only one who had her own earning, my responsibility towards my bros and sis becomes tighter. i dun mind much, i guess that’s what i should be doing as i moved out from academic to working environment.

but many things have been left behind. i keep on buying books and mags but there they are, just left dusty on my shelf, flipped once - the day i bought them. and i’ve missed out many updated news around me, i seldom read the newspapers, seem like i didn’t have enough time for all those things. i let go my craze on swimming and sitting around MPH for other things which are less amusing. and i really miss those days when i don’t have much things on my mind, and not multi-tasking like i have as today.