YOE-ism

It has never been a surprise how black clothes could actually make me fall in love with it again and again. I was trying so hard all this while to avoid its temptation and tried to divert my direction to other colours, but its elegance and grace have always enticed me to indulge more with it. Or in other words, to keep on mounting my wardrobe collections with its dark, and bleak yet luring shines. 

Again, as we’re threading this dignified month, Ramadhan, it never heaves away the enthusiasm to welcome the Eid sooner than it should be – well, it happens to me most of the time. And the only reason for that is, it’s one of the times I shall have my special purpose to shop! I may not a stereotype, who seems to get overzealously thrilled as soon as Eid is approaching just because they can gather with all ranks of family members during that time. I’ve lost my interest on that, used to have, but had been blown away. Therefore, only my own family circle is in concern now – Ibu, bapak, karmila, fayyadh, adek and I.

As a perfect replacement, able to shop for Raya is much more fun nowadays! And coming back to core purpose of this post, again, my shopping had always ended up in BLACKS! It’s not that I didn’t try to snub it, but it’s just like a perfect coincidental event – right design with just a right colour!

I did few rakings on other colours, I do have purely genuine intention to love some others for this upcoming Eid but it didn’t seem to work! Should I be boggled? Yes indeed, because how come it did work for my other casual shoppings? Damn!

Let me call up my mind, well I was first in love with black when I was bombed with the notion, “wearing black can make you look slimmer” and that was like 12 years back! And ever since, black has always been my fetish. 

Anyway, here I am, again with few blacks for you, Eid – and as usual, you might have expected it.

Few things to mend, few things to do:

1. I need to spare more time with my family; at least be with them during the weekend for fast-breaking times together. It had been about the my customers all this while.

2. Learn to talk less, think more.

3. Lose more weight! Need to get on the target before the raya!

4. Closer to Him more than ever.

5. Repent.

6. Less movie-goings.

7.Tidier, prettier room. Cosy ambience is highly needed in that house!

8. Less phone-calls, more sms.

9. Less eye-ing; regardless what it is.

And as for the rest, it might go on as usual.

I consider myself lucky when:

1.        I’m not a gadget-freak who tends to overreact every time a new PDA, or even mobile phone or I-Pod models hit the store! And for that reason, I’m safe from being thousands of ringgits poorer. And in case you don’t know, I’m still using my old Nokia phone, which is launched back in year 2000! Yes, I can’t lie to myself that all the new models do tempt me, but to spend on them, is a big no-no to me. 

* Zul, how I’m lucky I’m not you.

2.      I’m not a Levi’s-freak too! I just buy any denim product, which I think cool and nice. Not necessarily a Levi’s.

* Aun, thank God I’m not you.

3.       I’m not into buyings of shoes, which caused me to splurge hundreds of my earning! I’m definitely not a Nine West or Aldo original-price-buyer!

* Ally, Erra, how I’m glad I’m not you.

4.      I’m not an extreme make-up lover! Yes, I do buy things; I mean high-end brands, but only few selections. I didn’t go for the whole range like blusher, eyeshades, foundations, concealers, bronzers and the list goes on and on. For me, few important things like lipcolours and eyeliners would do.

* Ally, Malin, Erra again I’m thankful I’m not you. 

5.       I don’t mind if any in my wardrobe cost rm10! Or even lower than that! I’m not a selective in brands while doing my wardrobe shopping. For me, as long as it’s appealing enough, I wouldn’t mind at all. Yes, I don’t deny the fact that I went for brands sometimes, but it has to be really worth the design and the money that I’m paying. And I do think that buying scarf for rm80 is ridiculous. Somehow, I don’t seem ready to be in that stage yet.

* For this part, many of my friends are affected. You know who you are!

6.       I’m not a vacation-freak! This is the most wasting of all! Some of my friends even spent thousands for having fun with sightseeing here and there; either locally or internationally. And all they do is; pose here and there with their cameras, but didn’t manage to buy anything for themselves or even their loved ones! Reason: “no budget laa babe!” I reckon, once in a while is never a nuisance, but to be elsewhere merely for sightseeing doesn’t seem appealing at all!

* Erm, should I name ‘you’?

7.       I’m not a bookworm! Some chums of mine do splurge hundreds to get their hands on all super-selling books on the shelf! And yes, they are not cheap!

* Dear Az, get a real life!

8.       I’m not any type of CD/DVD/VCD freak!  I’ve found a friend who is ecstatically high on buying those stuffs! She claims that most of her pay is “donated” for these lovely plates!

* Eza, maybe sometimes you can lend me few?

9.       I’m not among those lovers of accessories! Yes, the Tiffany’s bracelet is charming! Yes, that Monet’s pendant is alluring! But why I don’t feel like buying?

* Malin, some of your stuff are darn lovely!

Maybe few of you out there want to rebut me on this.

Yes, I do have few unluckies, why don’t you just name it for me? I’m too in rush to place mine now. J

I don’t mind, your choice, go ahead.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Few times happened and the more we spend time together, the more I realized that we are mirroring each other. Things came around almost all the time but it took a while for me to actually comprehend everything figuratively.

I’ve spent most of my time few years back with girlfriends and most of them had great hullabaloos to tell about their beaux. Few were authorized badly, few were intimidated gravely by their partners’ strong qualities, and even few were under force and suppression of their partners, that they might have forgotten that the relationship they were having were supposed to be a “love relationship” and I wonder where did these atrocious attitudes coming from?

However, I do still meet a friend who has good control of her beau. They respect each other, being tolerant to one another most of the time, and the moment I saw them together – having conversation and etc, I can sense the feeling of delight with their relationship management. Well, that’s what I saw with my bare eyes, and of course, I won’t know how they are like behind me. They might pretend, they might act, only God knows best.

Being together and being compatible are two different things. Some may have both in a relationship, and some may only have either one of the two. Few people stay friends for years – boy and girl – they understand each other well, they laugh at each other’s jokes and they even cry on each other’s ears. But they were not together in a “love relationship”. But yes, they are too compatible to be true!

And some, they scoff at each other, one side owns more tyrannical power upon the other side, one side nags more and one side definitely hurts more. But again, yes, they are in love! O gosh, I wish I could believe that these types of people are in love with each other!

I wouldn’t address myself as a good controller in my personal relationship. I won’t dare to say so. But yes, I do see mirror in front of me when I’m with him. But of course, it wouldn’t be there at all times. But the most blissful moment will be when we are out on roads, in the car, either with or without on-ing the music. Few things happened, which had caused us hooting like hell!

1. Both of us seem could act well. So, whenever a familiar song aired, either one of us will start to sing along as if we are acting in a video clip. We made faces, with crazy hand and body gestures. And yes, it was damn funny! Most of the time, he did the driving, so, I will be the one who recorded his so-called music vid. But when it was my time on my clip, he didn’t manage to record it. Too bad!

2. Secondly, we sometimes recorded a song together, especially when traffic jam is killing us! The singings were awful; I have to admit that. We did a cappella toos! It was indeed a horrible sound! But yes, it was fun!

3. We pulled the car somewhere for picture-takings! And the places were not amusing at all. We’ve once located our photography session by the commuter station with few stray dogs around! What a bad choice!

4. While waiting for a traffic light, we often acted the lines of P.Ramlee’s movies. My first try - I thought he wouldn’t know what I was prattling about but when he started to resume my-sometimes-forgotten-lines, both of us were bursting into great guffaw. And now, we’re used to it, and practices do make us perfect!

5. Looking at the front car’s plate number is fun too but I wasn’t the one who came out with this – it’s his idea. E.g. the plate number is WKE 8876 – so, he created a meaningful sentence out of WKE abbreviations. And most of the time, it was stupid and sleazy!

6. This is an upcoming event – yet to be done – pull the car by the highway and snap a picture with a billboard of cute kids’ faces at the back. We’ve spotted one in Federal.

I’m not sure what to end here, but basically, those are few things we do together when we wanted to have fun with each other besides the normal routines like dinings and movies.

I really want to update my blog today, but I just can’t figure out any interesting event or idea to share. I know I might not be able to do so later than today’s morning, my deadliest occupied moment is about to shower me any time from now.

I’ve read one post by a friend today, she was mentioning about faith of a person. All this while, it seems obvious that we usually own a good concordance with each other’s opinions, and it proves out to be true again this time. She mentioned that, once God delays our wishes, doesn’t mean that God is on His way to reject them.

And just like her, I always believe it is true indeed. And furthermore, I believe, that all God needs is, our incessant prayers, hopes and faith towards Him. And again just like her, I do feel sorry for those who couldn’t keep their faiths towards God.

Everything, anything, without God’s will, nothing is possible.  We are just mortals. Committing sins repeatedly is inevitable. But still it is necessary for us to feel the agony of remorse. And having it within us may do some favours for us to avoid any recurrence.

May all of us will succumb more efforts towards our Almighty God, Allah SWT now and ever. As Ramadhan is reaching near, may all of us will take good benefit from it. Amen.

My beloved D,

Thanks for all the beautiful moments we had together. I know it’s going to be very hard for me to go through the empty moment without you. I’ve lost my reliable source to nag, my trustworthy port to confide and also my best companion to jump over the hurdles of sales!

For all those time you stood by me, you are just so wonderful, and somehow I’m glad you’ve found your ultimate destiny in life. May your upcoming life is much merrier than what you’ve experienced. Always bear in mind that being in adversity will always bring out bright light at the end of its tunnel. I may not have threaded one kind of life as hard as you, but being with you, somehow had pushed me to another state to look for a better me, in a stronger invincibility.

We might have learned something new from each other, and for all those encouraging sides, I hope we will always learn how to learn from them time after time. Take a good care of yourself, your family, I’m surely going to miss you and all our good old days together.

P/s: I’m sure the call name I’ve given you is now going to be permanently yours and happily used.

And that’s my girl, D.