YOE-ism

I’ve lost touch to this blog couple months back. I may be too lazy to think of what to write or maybe I just refuse to share of what I think. Regardless of the happiness I’ve felt, I’m still nailed down with misery and fatigue. I am not that certain to announce that I will soon meet the prize of the efforts I’ve done so far, but I know, an action should always be taken to get to its end.

What I’ve earned from my past 2 years?

-         Working experience

-         Perhaps my eternal soul mate

-         Lost few friends, met new ones

-         Reality of the world; of how people can change in just a nick of time, how fate could twist within one second and how shattered pieces could coalesce all over again.

-         More colourful antics of human

-         I’m stronger now, always at my best to expect the unexpected although I’ve skidded and stumbled few times here and there.

What I’m currently up to?

-         Planning for another level of life; marriage.

-         Looking forward for another arena of career.

-         Crashing my mind and brawn to cope with few things at one time – trying to be at different places in a same day is so normal for me now and frankly, I think I’ve had enough and I’m so keen to put an end towards it.

What I expect my future will be?

-         I’m not sure for how long he and I will stay as weekend husband, but I really hope it will soon to end. I’m planning to live under the same roof of a marriage, just like other couples do. I think it doesn’t sound right to me to get married but then being away from each other. It’s just too not normal! I usually get highly emotional every time we had this discussion. Yells and screams are just like normal speech for me. Again, I don’t think it’s healthy either. I wish I can plan more for my future but it seems hard to embed such a good dart when you’re not physically being together!

-         I guess I have to be very peaceful at what I’ve chosen. This is the right destiny for me. It might taste so bitter at first, and all I hope, the sweetness of this sacrifice will come aboard sooner or later. It hurts me every time I think of it. Only God knows best the wisdom of all this. Despite I’ve possessed the nature being very ambitious and successful, I just can’t think right when I’m burdened with this thought.

-         I may not know what is out there for me but all I ask, I will be awarded with full strength to go through all the coming tests and barriers soon I will be facing.

As for now, I’m so thankful to know few reliable friends who have been so much help with my wedding preparation and pierce a tick to my head to a better prospect in life. I will finish what I’ve started although I’m currently praying hard for a greater zest in my soul to move on steadily.

Only time will tell.