YOE-ism

Days are eating me up, acknowledged enough!

I am counting days, not to say that I can’t wait, but I’ve had enough of the tedious hassles!

I don’t think I’m that last minute in settling things, but there are few things which have left uncontrolled and have driven me crazy!

My wedding dress for an instance; from the first fitting, I know that it was not right. Thus, it had gone to its first alteration. Fine. Second fitting which was 2 weeks later, I barely felt the difference! And 2 days after that, the bridal tailor called me and announced; it wasn’t yet altered! Damn you!

All right Yoe, take a deep breath and let her take it for the alteration. My mom had blown her rage from the first moment she saw the dress and said that another alteration is fine but if it’s still wrong, “I want a new one!!”

Hence, last night, the final fitting; which got me panicked, as I know nothing much can be done, because it didn’t suit my size from the beginning!

So there you go! Seriously need a new one! So, this coming week, which is already my final week before the event, I will do my final fitting and hopefully it works nicely this time! Or else, don’t blame me if your boutique ever burned down disgracefully.

And this week also will be my final one at work, being an employee. The good thing; no more deadlines and rules. The bad one; definitely no more monthly pay. But I guess a sacrifice is apparently needed to arrive at another end.

On 1^st July, my father will be the one who unites he and I.

“Mohamad Putera, aku nikahkan dikau dengan puteriku, Che Nooryohana…..”

Gosh! Scary!!

As for now, all I can do, is to keep on praying for the best, hopefully the flow of the event is smoother than expected. Yes, I am a bit edgy right now. It’s hard for me when I still have few other unfinished plans weighing on my mind.

Ibu and bapak, thank you for everything. You’ve taken care of me perfect enough and words are never enough for me to express my gratitude for all your love and courage. So I guess these coming 2 weeks will be the final ones I will be under your guardianship. It feels like tearing me apart to be someone else after I’ve lived as your girl for 26 years now. As for my lovely Karmila, charming Fayyadh and cheeky Rashid, please bear another week for us crashing together sleeping in one room. I guess I won’t be able to that again later.

And God, please, I’m just so faltered right now. I need more strength and excitement to face that day. I’m just too happy to be with him, yet too broken to leave my family behind. Your guidance, is all I ask for.

I was triggered by Jan this afternoon with her idea of quitting her job as I’ve done mine for full-time studying. As I’m so used to being in the office the whole day despite I’m so desperate to be so loose with my time, I don’t find that attending classes and doing assignments the whole way is going to amuse me later on. Therefore, why don’t I hitch onto a part-time job instead?

Yes! It indeed sounds interesting to me.

And there she went and gave me a link to few employers who are looking for part-timers. I clicked on one – which was looking for an English classes assistant – which sent my face straight to a smiley one as I saw the link. However, since the requirement was very much lower than my qualification, I started to doubt the payment. And at the end of the ad, there was a contact number and as my curiosity was starting to roar, I just went ahead and gave that number a call.

A lady picked it up. She sounded very much Chinese although some of her pronunciations did sound little bit of American and I was very sure she must be in charged there. And yes, she is a Chinese.

I directly asked her about the post, while she was very busy to know about my qualification. I told her the details of my first degree and my future postgraduate program as well. She sounded so much impressed and interested, but that relieved feeling wasn’t long when she started to tell me that this isn’t the job for me if I’m so in need of money.

The statement sent me to a pondering state. I mean, how low can the payment be? When she told me real rate, I started to calculate. And yes, I think I can earn more in Herbalife rather than this. She went on and elaborated on the schedule and I kept on listening hard.

The place sounds interesting as it is in educating line and I know this heart of mine; it’s hard to resist such passion.

So, I just went on and listened to her. The conversation started to get lengthier than it should when she started to ask me about the place I would be staying for my postgraduate study as she was offering me her place! Not for free, of course, but she was thinking to rent out some of her rooms. And again, she started detailing me everything a.k.a. promoting her assets.

To me, she sounds so pleasant. But it strikes me a question, if I’m staying with her, how about her kids and husband? Will they be comfy enough to have strangers in the house? And fyi, the children are all grown-ups. She stayed silent for few seconds as I asked about it before she started to gag out all the history. Yes, her husband dumped her for another woman who he met online after 24 years of marriage!

I was surprised, but not surprised enough with nowadays of technology. So, there it goes another ruined relationship. We went on talking as if we knew each other like years. She was in my mom’s age and she thanked me many time for making up her day as she hardly smiled and laughed these days. The call went on more than an hour and i had to end it up for my prayer.

And here I am, dressed in weird feeling. But I guess it’s true, only with few words, people can easily create a longer relationship. She displayed an interest to meet me and also wanted to get involved in more serious thing such as setting a business together later on as we’re in the same education line. I will want to consider that – a better prospect for me in the future, and it will also create the real me; a soul with great ambition and dreams.

Thanks Mrs. Lee. I may not know if you ever have an ulterior motive on me, but you did strengthen an idea within me. Yes, you’re right, man can never be trusted. A fortress for ourselves is highly needed and totally depending on them is definitely a very wrong thing to do. I know. By the way, thanks for your wish, wishing me all the best with my coming marriage. I really appreciate it.