YOE-ism

It’s been so long I have left this blog writing. I’ve been too occupied, just can’t think of anything else besides what I am focusing so far.

Yes, I don’t work 8-5 like others, but my workload for my studies is just as worse. I don’t get enough rest, and my weekends are always vanished in time. I have to forsake my favourite pastimes, and purely focus on my mounting assignments or else, I won’t able to meet the deadlines.

It is very bad, when at the same time I have to travel back to my husband’s place in Kedah, every fortnight and sometimes every week! I can’t describe the aches I have felt all over me. I guess patience and love are the only elements of strength that push me forward.

And now it is Ramadhan, almost reaching the end of it. It’s my first time ever manage to fast without ‘taking leave’. But I did break it for 2 days, but not because of that ‘woman thing’ but rather a very bad morning sickness. Now, it is growing in me. I know it is still early, but the bulge is there. Probably, my fat is affecting the size as well. J

To have another person in me, I feel like I have a loyal companion. Someone I can talk to when I’m lonely, although the response is rather covert. But yes, just like others, the nauseous feeling, the bile and vomits, that metallic taste and the fatigue are the main challenges I have to face. It’s just worse in this fasting month, I hardly eat and even if I eat, the food just can’t stay long. When I start to gag, so that’s it! It is indeed not fair for both of us because I didn’t take nutritious food very much. It’s not that I am selfish, but I just couldn’t!

Most of the cases, after the first tri-semester, it will be all right. I’m enthusiastically looking forward for it. I hope it will be over soon. I will sit for my final exam at the end of this month, and I’m praying hard for my good health; mentally and physically. As for this week, I’m still hiking the staircases for my classes. This week is the last one; final class, final paper to be submitted and final presentation of this semester.

I will start a new semester end of December. I’m probably in my fourth month that time. The bulge is definitely more obvious and my weight will be more I supposed. Currently, I don’t gain much, I even lost few days back.

My raya is rather different this year, I have new set of family to celebrate it, new places and houses to visit. So everything is for the first time, and I hope it will go well.

So I guess I would like to end it here. Selamat Hari Raya to all of you who are celebrating it and do drive safely. Maaf zahir batin.