Hope & Faith
Somehow I think I’ve gone through worst life cycle ever, but fact has to be bear in mind; there are always more pathetic cases! I might have fallen over and over again, but it’s always not easy to get up straight on my feet after my mind has told me that my incident is the worst case scenario! Experiences never really teach me a lesson.
Being healthy mentally is very crucial! Imagine a life without optimism? Faith and hope are always there for me, but there is always this resilient voice telling me that I’m hopeless! That’s not right, I know!
Plans are always twisted, most of the times. But I won’t stop believing, never!
Living a life now is no longer for oneself, but more for others’ purpose, which is the best thing I have ever felt in this life! It is beautiful beyond words.
So now, I’m on my way completing my second semester. There are 3 more weeks to go before I’m shackled with my exam papers. Bashed with 14 written assignments for the whole semester is not a picnic at all! I somehow feel unfair treatment was served! And while my baby is growing, I’m no longer in my comfort zone of doing anything! It’s in the 8th month now, but it doesn’t show that way. God knows best. If He ever created bigger bulge than this, I probably need a driver to the campus!
So far, I’m still keeping myself to my old XXL wardrobe, except for few pants. Had no choice but to get new ones to keep myself at ease. I always think that being pregnant should not stop women from being stylish! But I think in most cases I know, they even put on maternity outfits as early as they are in the 2nd month! Purpose? Well, probably to make a covert announcement. My husband told me, some women are overjoyed with their pregnancies as it is the ultimate indicator of their femininity! Perhaps it is true. Anyway, it is a man who did the talking.
One of my exam papers has being moved to an earlier date, just because it is 10days away from my due date! The lecturer refuses to take the risk and so she requests for an amendment. That’s so thoughtful of her!
It’s somewhere 6-7 weeks away before the new person in my life arrives. I’m a bit terrified although I can’t really wait for his arrival! I hope God has planned it well for me – for me to complete this semester and sit for my exams safely. It’s all in God’s hands.
