Admiration
Finally, the awaited day has now arrived! The moment that I have been looking forward to meet is now in front of me and I have to thank no other but The Most Merciful God, Allah SWT for making this a reality for me to grasp. I am now, have completed all my examination papers, with still having healthy baby within me to move on until it is the right time for him to arrive. And as for now, I am so much ready to welcome his arrival as I have no more agenda to chase and get over with. I will just have to wait patiently until my water is broken!
Having the opportunity to go through this final class attending semester is such a miraculous blessing! I have been praying from day 1 I knew I was pregnant for me to be able to catch my breath and let me get over with what I should be doing i.e. my personal commitments before I could deliver this blissful blessing! And finally I knew that all of the prayers I have made have come to a state of grant! They were all heard indeed.
Many of you may not know the hassles and barriers that I have to challenge to get through this semester while I am in a state of ‘should be getting better rest’ for the sake of the baby’s and my own health. And as it has been going on for so many months, I have treaded the hard cycles alone without my husband to crutch me physically. Emotionally, he has been the greatest help I could have ever got. Nevertheless, I should feel thankful for that although I wish he could do more than that. And now, I am at the comfort zone as I have completed my exams, assignments and presentations peacefully despite the edginess that has been biting my back waiting for my labour day.
And as soon as I am about to put an end to this semester’s journey, I have received many surprising admiring remarks from few course mates and lecturers regarding my strength; physically and mentally without fail attending the classes where I have equated myself with others who do not have the extra commitment as I do. While I still do not see the exact point of my strength but I know it was not easy to get through it.
It has been a very astounding point for most people that I have met that I still manage to drive quite long distance even in my final trimester and now I am already 37 weeks (which is more than 9 months), yet I am still driving to anywhere I think I should go. I still climb stairs like before, I had submitted my assignments earliest than other people do despite I had 14 papers of assignments to focus on and I had voluntarily offered myself to be among the first presenters although I could opt for a later date. And with all the burdens, I still can look good with my physical appearance. Perhaps, those were the reasons of an opaque admiration.
Indeed, God has been beside me all this while. It has always been HIM offering me all the helps and health to keep on moving. And of course, since I have this baby in me, my reasons to succeed are no longer for myself but rather for him and for my beloved husband who has incessantly bestowed prayers upon me and been loving me this much that have inspired me to exceed the limit of my own ability. And now, I just truly believe that we will get somewhere once we have the will. External or internal, any will do.
